Sore, I feel sore
My head hurts
My legs hurt
Everywhere hurts
I scream
I cry
I plead
I shout
No one can hear me
I hit at him
My strength soon fails me
I cannot fight anymore
I’m trapped in my mind
Trying to think happy thoughts
Thoughts that never materialize
He is done
Finally
I hear his grunts of pleasure
The zipping of his trousers
The door slams
I’m all alone
The sheets become my source of refuge
I burrow deeper and deeper into them
I’m afraid to get up
Terrified of what I’ve become now
I feel empty
I feel used
I feel ashamed
I feel disgusted
It was a mistake
A great mistake
Downing all that alcohol
And now, this monster
Someone I called ‘friend’
Has had his way with me…!!
Does he think
Think for a moment
That he would get away with this??
Never…
But now, at this point
I am facing the music
I am miserable
Hollow inside
And enough
That I feel I can never be completely whole
Again.